Thursday, March 22
For this life was never mine.
(Exit stage centre)
I no longer find solace in blogging
for it hurts and pains me too much.
(Exit stage left)
End
3/22/2007 09:52:00 PM
Sunday, March 18
dearest konyot,
nak sangat kan? amek ko!!
read: congrats dearest konyot, i hope you'll really like it.
3/18/2007 04:31:00 AM
Monday, March 12
There's a calm before the storm,
I know, it's been coming for some time..."
3/12/2007 09:18:00 PM
Wednesday, March 7
i would love to just travel and settle down;
start afresh somewhere, elsewhere.
3/07/2007 10:40:00 PM
Sunday, March 4
this should suffice, for now.
cue drool.
this is, by far, the most moist and velvety smooth cheesecake i've made as compared to my previous dry attempts.
starbucks; sell cheesecakes in espresso cups.
p/s: when i grow older, i want to be a cheese chef!
3/04/2007 10:27:00 PM
Friday, March 2
let it dilapidate.
sorry. no hot wax.
better luck next time, bugger.
3/02/2007 11:39:00 PM
Friday, February 23
oreo, blackcurrant and strawberry.
mission accomplished!
and dearest nona, sab and nurul,
thank you darlings for the cairebrosia time.
again, again...ten ten ten!!! =)
p/s: vivo's connected to harbourfront. sheesh
2/23/2007 02:51:00 AM
Wednesday, February 14
venti-sized please <3
happy happy belated birthday!
hah, jaga lo. gue balas dendam sama lo.
muahaha
2/14/2007 04:43:00 PM
Saturday, February 10
holding on is just a manifestation of our ignorant selves.
please let go and live.
2/10/2007 08:55:00 PM
Sunday, January 28
Mak aiii, let's do it again girls...
Damn therapeutic sia.
Of course, many thanks to air-conditioned Le Caire, one of the best chill out places
(hint: advertisement)
Time flies so fast and I've missed too many seconds, minutes and hours of life.
Work is truly exhausting me of time and energy, I don't even have the strength to hang out with the people I love. I can forget about future plans to pacify and pamper myself already, and oh, my adventurous side has yet to be fed, God knows when.
But the matter of fact is, I'm lazy. Time is never a factor la. I'm just justifying my own selfish reasons which is in fact, ridiculous. Busy is not in my dictionary coz I'm never busy. Just effing lazy and I'm loathing myself for such oblivion towards stuffs in life other than work and making money. Hah. I'm lazy nak mampoos.
Anywoos, quoting Zana,
"Don't cry over spilt milk; just lick it."
But I don't even have the guts to admit and learn from it. I'd rather weep in one corner believing that time is against my life and that I can't do much about it.
Blardy pathetic.
Ok, I'm damn busy.
Goodbye.
1/28/2007 03:17:00 PM
Wednesday, January 17
it's really not worth it.
i'm not even a wee bit interested.
we don't dig grounds for moolah and we don't spread our legs either.
(no pun intended)
so amacam?
my tai-tai dreams is sooo attainable, NOT.
i don't even make sense at all.
and this charade is just too ridiculous, guessing my own answers.
"di dalam jaga, ku tercari-cari
di dalam mimpi, ku termimpi-mimpi"
1/17/2007 12:12:00 AM
Monday, January 15
"Menanti, hingga sampai akhir hayatku di dunia ini."
1/15/2007 12:34:00 AM
Monday, January 1
Be married to Bloom
Befriend Ian
so, what's your resolution?
Best regards,
The Perasan One.
1/01/2007 02:58:00 AM
Sunday, December 17
cheeeyalat.
i'm in dire need for a shopping spree la, a.k.a obsessive- compulsive-splurging behaviour. hah.
and dearest,
it has my name written all over it, no? blearghdefuik
nafsu 1, halawah 0
12/17/2006 01:12:00 AM
Saturday, November 18
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."
- Dora
for here grande extra cherry cheesecake...
i've yet to try more recipes, so hopefully 2 perfect ventis are ready in time for the wedding *prays*
abit passe, but hey...
happy 20th on the 14th sod =)
and happy 23rd on the 16th ironman, woots!
11/18/2006 10:56:00 AM
Saturday, November 4
hmm, gotta get a take-copter from japan...
by the way,
the below quote is seriously kelakar maut.
"Hidup mati di tangan tuhan dok,
rock never dies!!"
rock never dies!!"
cue laugh
have a kirky weekend!
have a kirky weekend!
11/04/2006 11:55:00 PM
Thursday, October 19
too pink, too blue
now, my sugees look like plasticine!
so much for being adventurous...
japan-styled seafood is simply delish!
and wahlao jamie and ffloyd... bless travel and living channel
so no worries now =)
as much as i hate cooking, i'm getting the hang of it. bapak bisa sabarrrr ngak?
post-it to self: too adventurous, not always good
10/19/2006 12:58:00 PM
Saturday, October 14
toot toot tooooooooooooooooooot!
s to the y and p to the y
it's been too much fun, i'll miss you babies...
galfrennn =)
chill baby, if not jialat le =P
10/14/2006 08:34:00 PM
Saturday, October 7
my chest pains tripled coz' of you.
thanks.
10/07/2006 02:49:00 PM
Sunday, September 24
kekok gitu.
life's been sweet and cotton candy'ish, alhamdulilah,
excluding work. herh, like totally galfren.
girls' outing, although brief, was faB as ever.
Ketawa kekek and heart to heart talk...
we must iftar together soon, my dear hearts?
and lastly, you've been my darling.
i heart you for the patience =>
selamat bersehry dan beriftar.
9/24/2006 11:52:00 AM
Sunday, September 17
there shall be no mention of names since you've gotten my replies =) many hearts and thanks filled with rock sugar candy covered with caramel and a thousand, smoochies!!
power abis la, gerek member =P
movie, dinner, roses, godivas and hersheys, twice! thankiu doraemon...
lup loopss
i'm still waiting for the shopping spree treat =D
9/17/2006 10:20:00 PM
Monday, September 4
you are selfish.
you suck.
and i hate you, so you suck even more.
i want to head over to tioman NOW and go snorkeling/scuba diving/jet skiing, bathe under the sun in the clear blue waters and eat seafood all day and all week.
i need a vacation, bernie's style <>
i just hope i won't get alien-head allergies.
so, booyah!
bye steve irwin. you were my croc hero.
9/04/2006 11:12:00 PM
Saturday, August 26
of quiet cries and silent weeps.
masyaallah, the rosewater scent.
8/26/2006 08:58:00 PM
Friday, August 18
i hear a mother's sorrow to a daughter's weeps,
amidst the echoes... a death whispers.
it paced its steps, oh how it tip-toed...
with its a dozen toes and murderous shadows,
it leers near, never close but never far.
i saw it. it hid and it ran.
i smiled and grinned, the irony...
i knew it's here, it is here for me.
but please don't run, please don't go...
i know you, we've met before
your black shadows and a dozen toes.
8/18/2006 01:32:00 AM
Thursday, August 10
my mini self holding my hand to cross the road, in my arms with flooding eyes, cuddling under the covers throughout the night, flying kisses with blasting sound effects from afar and innocent wet kisses when i'm down or in dire need of affection.
and to share that every moment will be the only bonus that's gazillion times more precious than my starbucks cup that god has bestowed upon me.
seriously, anything more precious than my kopi or red bull right now is really really something huge =)
but i dare not be too kuasa with such trivialities of life...
p/s: get me another, i'm sick of this coffin already.
and to share that every moment will be the only bonus that's gazillion times more precious than my starbucks cup that god has bestowed upon me.
seriously, anything more precious than my kopi or red bull right now is really really something huge =)
but i dare not be too kuasa with such trivialities of life...
p/s: get me another, i'm sick of this coffin already.
8/10/2006 10:49:00 PM
Sunday, August 6
happy 23 hours in advance birthday dan!
take care silly sweetie sarah, don't forget my hints coughssanfranstarbucksmug&bearcoughs
*grins*
and you know, let's try make this work...
seriously, let's bask in the sea of cookies and muffins =)
8/06/2006 01:12:00 AM
Tuesday, August 1
i've never been so proud of you.
i could see the twinkle in your eyes,
the million smiles at the corners of your mouth...
seeing you shine in your self,
with your self,
by yourself...
you are doing oh-so fine and beautiful, syukur =)
8/01/2006 10:32:00 PM
Saturday, July 22
love. it takes on a whole new form without our realisation. we experience love, we speak love, we describe love. we are taught subconsciously of its nature and over time, the adjectives we use of love imposes itself unto our naked bodies instead of our minds. and yet, it remains incomprehensible. it slowly dances into our beliefs, stripping us off of principles we religiously lived by for what seems like eternity while rhythming us towards the edge of almost no return.
sadly, most of the time, we blindly surrender to its triumph as it clouds our rational minds. we let it evolve without much thought to only submit ourselves wholely to love and god is neither second nor third .
a love to be fucked.
no longer a submission to god.
but, heh, that's not the point.
bloom is just gorgeous and heaven sent.
ouh, and his pirate accent...
arrrrrrr sexy to the max, aye mate?
and mraz has been my poet-buddy, day and night. no doubt he's wayyy too savvy for a chap. double woots! but don't worry depp sayang, you've pirated my heart eversince chocolat =)
i heart many deppbleepzeep,
dloomz of the vavavoom-zeeeezzzsss.
fishballing cheesy, i know *grins*
"it's takes no time to fall in love,
but it takes years to know what love is..."
7/22/2006 06:23:00 PM
Sunday, July 9
i'll always have this knight-in-shiny-armour of them. just too good a dream to be shattered la.
once you're a friend, you'll stop basking in those precious fleeting moments, you'll stop yearning for their presence because they are no longer a mystery. [mystery is the very life itself]
worst still, you then hope for more to only end up disappointed...
so my love, avoid to be such and you'll be so much happier =)
i'm happy leering near and knowing them the way i think they should be.
my nirvana man. jangan jelesss you *grins*
p/s: potties suck. c'mon germs!
7/09/2006 03:09:00 AM
Wednesday, July 5
i think public toilets loathe my presence. it's like they know something i don't and for that, they don't fancy me very much.
urgh, prolly it's my childhood sins.
i feel like i'm trapped in a twilight zone gitu...
instead of earl, it's "my name is halawah".
great larr, just great.
by the way,
bad karma, girlfriend... bad karma!
p.s: ''my name is earl'' is ridiculous
and it rocks my pink socks off
p.p.s: i'm rooting for germany.
c'mon ballack, c'mon germs!!
and it rocks my pink socks off
p.p.s: i'm rooting for germany.
c'mon ballack, c'mon germs!!
7/05/2006 12:10:00 AM
Monday, July 3
the case of the toilet bowl...
to help, i pressed several times more. so, a bowl-full of shit, literally, overflowed down the row of cubicles. girls came out screaming.
heng sian.
it's been physically and psychologically distressing. i'm truly sorry if there's any inconvenience caused. i hate this and i'm extremely sorry. the fact that it has adverse effects on you is unimaginably catastrophic. i admit i have an incredibly sharp weapon that can be verbally hurting. my sarcasm failed me. worst, i have failed you dear brother.
i'll bake butterscotch muffins, soon, and try make things better.
p/s: die larr, i'm not stepping into that toilet again.
7/03/2006 12:14:00 AM
Monday, June 26
i dare say, pasir ris park has vagina-tight security but awfully bad facilities and hygiene issues. but but! the quad F was worth almost every tip...
more more more! =>6/26/2006 06:52:00 PM
Friday, June 23
i'm usually in the state of denial but that's the path i tend to take when it's truly unacceptable =( really, it's excruciating when one slaps you with the truth that you refuse to acknowledge and strive to condemn it till hell's 7th door.
well (although i don't show it), it's world war IV in my head.
but, thanks for the wake. it's been long...
your honesty won me over, hands down, and that rarely happens =)
aneewees, above isn't the point.
like picasso, i wanna be kiddo again!
amusing myself weee too much these days.
p.s: someone, please, hand me an elephant gun
coz' you suck gigantic chuppa chups, big time!
6/23/2006 10:49:00 PM
Wednesday, June 21
"take away the judgements,
let me make my mistakes..."
omigosh omigosh
*flutters eyelashes*
6/21/2006 01:36:00 AM
Tuesday, June 20
i'm not a big fan of skies...
but i don't wanna miss out on 'em.
6/20/2006 12:46:00 AM
Friday, June 16
i missed graduation ceremony, la... haiz. i hope it was fun guys, wished i was there to give you my wawa hugs, kisses and whatnots.
another day, another time... pls? =)
on another note, one bapak from indonesia tried to find me a boyfriend after i told him how much i love the romantic indonesian language.
and guess what, he came back with his son -_-"
bother lah, mak eyyyy
p/s: in need of work-shopping marathon
6/16/2006 02:06:00 AM
Saturday, June 10
fine. if that was senseless, maybe it's just me in a state of ultimate delirium or you're just indifferent. i hope to believe it's the former but heck.
anywoos, i'm just really tired. almost 45 hours of hard labour and shopping in 3 days. woot! i'm uber proud of my supersonic self *grins*
maybe it's my bvlgari or the very thought of buying the-many-somethings. hmm, either way, work was ridiculously crazy-fun with jiggly stretchable grey sticky elephant and 7am ehem-jokes that have adverse psychological effects. HAHAHA.
and yes fafa, henri is dead.
BUT! you basked in his fleeting 'still' moments, no? =>
6/10/2006 12:43:00 AM
Monday, June 5
it saddens me. i hate this, being so close yet i can't do anything. absolutely nothing.
6/05/2006 03:44:00 AM
Thursday, May 25
i'm pretty sick of this pretentious hypocritical shannenigans.
yesterday i didn't sleep with grandma, just one out of 10 days, and she's making me drown in the atlantic ocean of guilt, mak aiiiiii...
she didn't even ask me to sleep with her today, for the first time. just great.
5/25/2006 12:25:00 AM
Wednesday, May 17
shaun of the dead is totally lame and hilarious.
ni kes ketawabedek-a-thon for 2 hours, hurr.
just think scary 4 with 1,000 pinches of resident evil and 10 gallons of british humour.
a good entertainment nevertheless =)
"tis' the season to be folly, fa la la la la la la la la
all the guys are pretty yummy, fa la la la la la la la la
they come to me just to drink kopi, fa la la la la la la la
tis' the season to be jolly, fa la la la la la la la laaaa..."
all the guys are pretty yummy, fa la la la la la la la la
they come to me just to drink kopi, fa la la la la la la la
tis' the season to be jolly, fa la la la la la la la laaaa..."
5/17/2006 12:43:00 AM
Sunday, May 14
my condolences nona dahling...
the fab four shall meet up soon k =)
5/14/2006 06:27:00 PM
Sunday, May 7
i miss mummy sol's carrot cake and her generous servings of cream cheese icing. once, she nearly busted her finger baking me one. haiz, she's one of the best cooks la... kan kan =)
heh. on another, rather rare, note...
i ran 5km and it felt, masyaallah, darn good. afterwhich a cold shower to only then watch cartoons till wee hours of the morning.
bless disney and nickelodeon for keeping me insanely sane.
note to self: buy a patrick
5/07/2006 03:37:00 AM
Friday, April 28
aku marah. aku marah tak terhingga. aku nak pecah pinggan mangkuk, curi their food supplies, and then bakar rumah orang.
imagine, she simply grabbed my rapunzel hair, one-handedly, and cut it short! woah, now i look like strawberry shortcake, i swear. only a wee bit longer.
and like that's not enough to set my head on fire and off the HDB roof, i lost my baby exilim. i'm extremely disappointed in you, dear friend. for what i've done and helped you, this is how you repay me... and this isn't the first time =(
note to self: sign up for haircutting classes
4/28/2006 11:48:00 AM
Thursday, April 20
when i'm flaming, i can hardly breathe. it's hard for me to even try to inhale. it's like as if earth came to life and chose to loathe me most, refusing and leaving me breathless as it engulfs me into total darkness of absolute nothingness.
i can't vend my anger 'coz i can't speak, i can't speak 'coz i can hardly breathe. herh, when i do speak, i'd express it with subtle vulgarity. if i don't, i'm attempting to melt metal-alloys inside me. extremely volatile.
right now, i just can't wait to die. seeing these two-faced creatures surrounding me and living the way they liked it to be irks me to death. I'd rather die than to be hypocritized by them.
the best/worst part is, i'm becoming like them.
mothercheefishheadkimball
4/20/2006 08:49:00 PM
Saturday, April 15
i doubt nuns get part-time jobs outside church to feed their emotional needs and materialistic wants, heh, especially at starbucks paragon.
so you, dearest mr apek who is of a pseudo-eurasian descent...
repent before thou be banished to hell. hah!
p/s: fantabulously great good friday with the beautiful girls; picnic by the planes and gallivanting at the expo =)
4/15/2006 04:41:00 PM
Friday, April 7
the melancholy of love cease to exist.
with the many dreamless dreams
of bloody fears and crippling wounds.
p/s: blasting-fool bbq...
hope everyone had fun especially the april fooling baby and april babies =>
4/07/2006 01:24:00 PM
Wednesday, March 29
coelho, my muse.
i oh-so love how coelho describes love.
his zahir and eleven minutes left me in total awe. so my dear homosapiens, if you need some enlightenment of some sort...
he did a seven-wonder on me =)
p/s: c'mon jenn, you gotta give coelho a chance ;)
3/29/2006 11:56:00 PM
Saturday, March 25
plus, the girlfriends make an awesome groupie
and powerr to the max la.
i wished you were there 'coz you'd be screaming like a groupie with me. we would be berhentak-hentaking kaki like a fast-forwarded parade and sing along to the oh-so fofular songs.
all in all, it was superbly fun like it has always been and should be... kan kan kan? =)
ok dahling-mahlings ku, let's do it again! hee
"di antara gadis-gadis seluruh dunia..."
3/25/2006 10:32:00 AM
Thursday, March 23
aku wanita, i have my needs too...
tsk tsk. oh well.
anyways, that's not the point.
her eyelashes are that of a camel. masyaallah!
whenever i pretend to cry and wail like there's no tomorrow...
she walks towards me, fluttering her eyelashes, and gives me, not one, but two big fat kisses with really blasting sound effects.
*mmmmmmmmmmmmuaccccccksss*
waduuuh... sungguh mencairkan.
oh, she's learning to speak correctly now and she's cracking me up. she thinks it's funny that i laugh at her 'coz i think she's funny.
this is insanely sane.
3/23/2006 11:46:00 AM
Saturday, March 18
the book of happy quotes,
for the love of god, stay alive.
the never ending beginnings
the never ending endings...
we shall make it come true.
3/18/2006 07:46:00 PM
Wednesday, March 15
stop fishing around and try to understand, for once! the taugeh is losing all the beans and sprouts of life, urgh, and the bunny-act is sooo not helping!!
btw, to all;
please do take care 'coz there're many who care for you =)
to love and peace,
cheers.
3/15/2006 12:10:00 AM
Saturday, February 25
2/25/2006 06:01:00 PM
Friday, February 24
Tenacious D's Tribute
i've pondered 10 times if i should post something online. then i thought for another 10 times if i should post it here or at lj's
(yes, beb. you nudged me. supercool. but lj later =X)
obviously, i chose blogspot. then i pondered for another 10 times with 'what the hell should i manifest(1) about?'
(1): fact; this is a public blog and public blogs are meant to be published to third parties like you, whether you like it or not. public blogs are meant to manifest about your life or whatever you think should be known =) peace.
hmm, i'll type out this post as long as possible so that you who are oblivious to my existence will read this to only get bored by the end of this paragraph, afterwhich you'll resume back to your shibbyshabbyshooby.
So, here it goes...
the last few weeks of school was stupefyingly fantabulous =)
i've encountered a series of enchanting and, err, unorthodox incidents? aha. But posting all about them here would be pointless coz they're worthy to me but not to you. they wowed me but wouldn't impress you since it is completely of no public interest.
haaa. but that's not the point.
my lovely masscommies, i'd miss you lot... terribly.
kimchi, dayunging, kopi, mashpotatowithbolognaise, thoughts shared, the rides, the runs, the rain, the sun, the nights and the law of busy-fication...
just to name a few 0=>
oops, this is the longest i can post.
till next time... bambi's off.
2/24/2006 06:47:00 PM
Friday, February 10
a holiday like johnny knoxville and the wildboyz is my idea of an exotic holiday-cum-getaway...
and btw, have i told you before that johnny knoxville is a freakingly hunky-cute-daredevil geeky actor/host?
happy valentine's to you and everyone
don't be selfish, share the looooooop luppin' =)
'Nothing Else Matters' is making me all frenzy again
*fengsan*
2/10/2006 11:43:00 PM
Thursday, February 9
it'd be great if there was any form of gratitude shown, at least. no matter how small or insignificant it was, just show some appreciation for what i did despite my state of health and my not-so busy schedule...
i'm so sensitive, i'm acting like a girl. heh.
like he says, "merajuk macam fomfuan"
anyways, that isn't the point.
i'm sick like a cow, if the cow ever get this sick. but i don't moo though. i laugh woah-that-was-damn-unfunny-funny like a madcow even at the most unfunny joke, ever.
.
.
.
damn it la ok. i don't know what to blog about anymore.
note to self:
buy a foldable elephant gun,
it'll come in real handy
2/09/2006 12:15:00 AM
Friday, February 3
My sweetest-old childhood friend is getting married
i'm sooo going to help her dress pretty pretty and blow the groom away with her drop dead gorgeous gown! =)
Bless this heaven-like-made union
and your beautiful-diabetic soul!
*nadya's-big-wet-kiss*
i like happy occasions.
it makes alot of people happy.
2/03/2006 11:17:00 PM
Wednesday, February 1
Crawling towards me, she stared at my lips
Giving me a big fat wet kiss with her little lips!
She giggles, clapping her little hands
She then takes a little dive, like i was sand
Giving me a big fat hug like a little saint
woooooot!
err, maybe plus a few 'sayang's to persuade her
2/01/2006 12:35:00 AM
Thursday, January 26
or
i've met two rather charming, queer [and perhaps] wise men who i'll never meet in my life again... ever.
we live life only once.
1/26/2006 12:40:00 AM
Sunday, January 15
i never felt so fractured like this before.
one illuminated me with a light, dim and dull.
although it may be useless, it is of worth to me.
let this candle dilapidate, its light be dead .
fire me another, brighter vibrant light,
although it may be worthless, it is useful to me...
1/15/2006 11:06:00 AM
Saturday, January 7
thank goodness this week's over.
and many more weeks to come.
1/07/2006 08:21:00 PM
